Heart-beat

Today was my second meeting with the midwives at the hospital.  I met the other midwife in the practice, J - and I think I may like her even better than M, who I met last time.  Of course that could be because I was a bit more relaxed this time, having been in once before.  Or because Tom came along for the ride.  Or because I had some questions so it gave her a chance to connect more with me.  Or it could just be that I click better with J.  I'll see both during the course of my pregnancy, but when the time comes to choose a primary I may choose J.  It's funny - I don't owe either of them anything but I feel a bit like I'm abandoning M if I do choose J.  I'm not good at decisions like that, where I worry that someone will feel slighted.  I spend too much time thinking about other people.  After all - it's nothing personal.  Or, I guess it is personal, but it's not like I think M is a bad midwife or a bad person. 

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