Again with the sleep

[aubreym]

Or lack thereof. I am about to lose my everloving mind. Ever since Tai and I arrived in the desert he's gone back to not sleeping in the evenings. He'll go down, then wake up every half hour or so and insist on nursing. In the middle of the night he'll want to nurse for an hour straight and it's not all eating- or even most of it. I cuddle, I rock, I offer a pacifier. He reacts like I am poking him with sticks.

Last night (our first night back) I was so fried that I snapped at him and when he cried louder I put my hand over his mouth for a second. Like that would help. We were in bed together, it was midnight and he'd been nursing since 11. My nipples were killing me. I finally told him he didn't need to nurse anymore right then, took him off and just rubbed his back and let him cry until we fell asleep.

I don't feel good about it, but I didn't know what else to do. Tom is in china until tomorrow and I needed a break. Tonight is looking like it might go similarly, nursing wise and I hope venting here will help me stay patient. It's not like Tai is trying to be mean or doing this on purpose. I just wish he'd take comfort in something other than my nipple.

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[alexisyael.livejournal.com]

(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

(I can relate, sleeping problems are SO hard, especially when you're on your own! You are doing the best you can, hang in there!)

[aubreym.livejournal.com]

Thank you. I appreciate the hugs, and the understanding.

[ringthebells]

As a fellow human pacifier, I offer you internet hugs. *hug*

[aubreym.livejournal.com]

thank you! Yes, human pacifier is it exactly.

This too shall pass

[(Anonymous)]

I hear ya, sister. Been there, in the middle of the night, losing my cool after an hour or so of I-know-you're-not-possibly-hungry nursing. Sometimes I think you just have to stop, take a deep breath, walk out of the room and scream into a pillow. Big hugs... hang in there!

Love,
Em

Re: This too shall pass

[aubreym.livejournal.com]

Thank you, Em! This is such a good idea. Screaming into a pillow would really help. Let out some of that frustration. (I owe you a phone call!)

[twirlgrrl.livejournal.com]

BTDT w/the not-being-able-to-stand-nursing-anymore, let-him-cry thing. *hugs*