Seeking Samadhi

I didn't notice at all either. I too almost always feel that way - on the outside even when on the inside, awkwardness, etc. It's made all the worse nowadays b/c if Sadie's around I am always a bit distracted by whatever it is that she is doing.

I was also pondering the impact of LJ on IRL friendships...sometimes I wonder what to say b/c I worry that I am just repeating what I have already said or will say in my LJ and then I clam up some.