Playing Catch-up
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aubreymWithout Holidailies to keep me honest, I'm just not so good at getting journal entries together. Add to this the fact that I forget a thought almost as quickly as I have it, I'm going to stick to bullet points in this entry. We'll see whether I come back to any topic or not. I'll do my best!
1. Tai and I may go insane if it really rains for the next week straight. We've been lucky this winter so far, able to go out almost every day and hit the playground or just go for a walk. Sadly, it looks like our luck is about to run out. I shouldn't whine, we need the rain. But Tai doesn't like to sit around the house, so rain puts a damper on things. (Yeah, not funny - I know.)
2. I've actually been (mostly) keeping up with my resolution to do more cooking. Going to the Farmer's Market every week really helps that. Having the good produce makes me want to cook. I haven't done anything extraordinary, but everything has been tasty. I've made stuffed butternut squash, spicy kale, potato leek soup, collard greens, sauteed shiitake mushrooms. Tom's made both apple and pear sauces. I'm about to make my second attempt at handmade bread. Tom even said that he enjoys my dinners, that they're healthy. I'm not perfect by any stretch of the imagination - I still like to order delivery and have a break.
3. I love my Mom's group, but sometimes I wish we spent more time talking and less time toddler wrangling. This is not going to happen any time soon. And I'm battling my social anxiety/awkwardness more lately too. The last couple of times I end up feeling like I'm either entering in conversations where people don't really care what I have to say, or hanging around on the sidelines like a big dork. I think I'm over-analysing things. When I see people one-on-one they seem happy to see me. I need to avoid the paranoia.
4. Tai is the most adorable baby ever. Today we saw Anne and Sam (one of the moms from our group and her son) on our way home from the library. Anne and I chatted for a minute and the whole time Tai rested his head on my chest and snuggled with me. Little shy faker. He loves to climb stairs, too. Today I accidentally left the gate to the back room/stairs open while I poured my cereal. All of a sudden I looked around and he was gone. I called him and heard him from part-way up the stairs. Needless to say i headed right up behind him so he wouldn't fall. And I keep the gate locked. When we go to the park he climbs up the play structure to hang out in the little house. He's not quite walking without a hand yet, but he's close.
5. Tai's doing better with sleeping (knock wood). He's napping twice a day, once in the morning, once in the early afternoon for about an hour or a bit longer both times. He goes to sleep around 8 (I try for sooner, but Dad puts him down and takes his time with it) and sleeps until we go to bed around 11, only waking up once or so. Then he sleeps until 7-ish with a couple of nurse-breaks.
6. He's also the king of eating. He likes just about everything. For breakfast he has half of a banana and a couple of cheerios. For lunch he has some of what-ever I'm having (usually soup - today the potato leek soup I made, yesterday lentil, Monday was Minestrone), maybe a bit of bread or avocado, and then almost a full 6 oz of yogurt. For dinner he has either some of what we're having (stuffed squash, mac n cheese, a veggie/rice/edamame cake thing) or a jar of baby food and some fruit. He didn't eat as much as usual today, but he's really been enjoying it.
7. Things with Tom are weird. Distant, usually. Sometimes tense. I've just been feeling like there's this huge gulf between us that started before we had Tai, but has really widened in the past year. I think we could use couple's counseling, but he's pretty dead set against it. Some positive things: we had a decent convesation last week, we've been doing date nights fairly regularly (though not since the holidays), we're making progress on the house. Some harder things: my sexuality has been leaning toward the girl-dreaming lately, I'm still holding resentment for things he's done in the past and I don't really know how to move through it, we don't talk much, and I'm tired of being the one who works on the relationship.
8. Tom's relationship with Tai is good, though. Watching Tai's face light up when Dad gets home is priceless. Tom can really make Tai laugh. While Tom was home during the holidays they spent some good time together, just the two of them. This makes me happy.
9. Oddly enough I've been going to church. I am confusled about my schizophrenic religious leanings.
10. I am so happy about President Obama! There was a part of me that didn't believe it would actually happen, but it has. It's official! I can breathe a sigh of relief.
11. I need to make an effort to do things for myself. Classes, a women's group, writing. I feel like there's not a lot of Aubrey-herself in here, just Aubrey-Momma and Aubrey-Wife. No TV and No Beer make Homer Something something.
1. Tai and I may go insane if it really rains for the next week straight. We've been lucky this winter so far, able to go out almost every day and hit the playground or just go for a walk. Sadly, it looks like our luck is about to run out. I shouldn't whine, we need the rain. But Tai doesn't like to sit around the house, so rain puts a damper on things. (Yeah, not funny - I know.)
2. I've actually been (mostly) keeping up with my resolution to do more cooking. Going to the Farmer's Market every week really helps that. Having the good produce makes me want to cook. I haven't done anything extraordinary, but everything has been tasty. I've made stuffed butternut squash, spicy kale, potato leek soup, collard greens, sauteed shiitake mushrooms. Tom's made both apple and pear sauces. I'm about to make my second attempt at handmade bread. Tom even said that he enjoys my dinners, that they're healthy. I'm not perfect by any stretch of the imagination - I still like to order delivery and have a break.
3. I love my Mom's group, but sometimes I wish we spent more time talking and less time toddler wrangling. This is not going to happen any time soon. And I'm battling my social anxiety/awkwardness more lately too. The last couple of times I end up feeling like I'm either entering in conversations where people don't really care what I have to say, or hanging around on the sidelines like a big dork. I think I'm over-analysing things. When I see people one-on-one they seem happy to see me. I need to avoid the paranoia.
4. Tai is the most adorable baby ever. Today we saw Anne and Sam (one of the moms from our group and her son) on our way home from the library. Anne and I chatted for a minute and the whole time Tai rested his head on my chest and snuggled with me. Little shy faker. He loves to climb stairs, too. Today I accidentally left the gate to the back room/stairs open while I poured my cereal. All of a sudden I looked around and he was gone. I called him and heard him from part-way up the stairs. Needless to say i headed right up behind him so he wouldn't fall. And I keep the gate locked. When we go to the park he climbs up the play structure to hang out in the little house. He's not quite walking without a hand yet, but he's close.
5. Tai's doing better with sleeping (knock wood). He's napping twice a day, once in the morning, once in the early afternoon for about an hour or a bit longer both times. He goes to sleep around 8 (I try for sooner, but Dad puts him down and takes his time with it) and sleeps until we go to bed around 11, only waking up once or so. Then he sleeps until 7-ish with a couple of nurse-breaks.
6. He's also the king of eating. He likes just about everything. For breakfast he has half of a banana and a couple of cheerios. For lunch he has some of what-ever I'm having (usually soup - today the potato leek soup I made, yesterday lentil, Monday was Minestrone), maybe a bit of bread or avocado, and then almost a full 6 oz of yogurt. For dinner he has either some of what we're having (stuffed squash, mac n cheese, a veggie/rice/edamame cake thing) or a jar of baby food and some fruit. He didn't eat as much as usual today, but he's really been enjoying it.
7. Things with Tom are weird. Distant, usually. Sometimes tense. I've just been feeling like there's this huge gulf between us that started before we had Tai, but has really widened in the past year. I think we could use couple's counseling, but he's pretty dead set against it. Some positive things: we had a decent convesation last week, we've been doing date nights fairly regularly (though not since the holidays), we're making progress on the house. Some harder things: my sexuality has been leaning toward the girl-dreaming lately, I'm still holding resentment for things he's done in the past and I don't really know how to move through it, we don't talk much, and I'm tired of being the one who works on the relationship.
8. Tom's relationship with Tai is good, though. Watching Tai's face light up when Dad gets home is priceless. Tom can really make Tai laugh. While Tom was home during the holidays they spent some good time together, just the two of them. This makes me happy.
9. Oddly enough I've been going to church. I am confusled about my schizophrenic religious leanings.
10. I am so happy about President Obama! There was a part of me that didn't believe it would actually happen, but it has. It's official! I can breathe a sigh of relief.
11. I need to make an effort to do things for myself. Classes, a women's group, writing. I feel like there's not a lot of Aubrey-herself in here, just Aubrey-Momma and Aubrey-Wife. No TV and No Beer make Homer Something something.
