Considering quarantine
Oct. 24th, 2009 04:12 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
aubreymSo Tom, Tai and I went to a pre-wedding fest on Ocean beach on Thursday evening. I consumed much wine. Then there was forgetting, then there was nausea, then there was a long day of hangover. Sadly, I missed most of the wedding yesterday because I was feeling too ill to stay. I felt mostly better this morning, but I'm still not back to myself. Which leads me to believe that this might be more than a simple hangover.
Then Tai was sitting on Tom's lap playing around and suddenly threw up. I have no idea if he accidentally gagged himself when he was screwing around, or whether there's stomach virus going on. Either way, not fun.
Tai seems to be feeling fine, after the one incident. He's outside playing with Tom right now. He might be a little quieter than usual, but not much.
I, on the other hand, am feeling sick again, and shaky with anxiety. It's frustrating because I'm pretty sure I feel sick because I'm freaked out not because I'm still sick. And I shouldn't be freaking out, because if Tai does have stomach virus, it started with me so I'm not going to get it again. I'd like to be chill about the whole situation but I'm not.
I'm trying to remember to breathe, and to tell myself that even if Tai and Tom get sick, it's a time-limited thing. Neither of them will be sick forever. And if it doesn't happen today, it will happen in the future, that's just the way of being human. I'm just not doing a great job of calming myself down and I'm wishing I could run away.
At least I didn't freak out in front of Tai, so I didn't make him upset about throwing up. I just wish there was a pill I could take to get rid of the anxiety and live life like most people. Sure, no one likes getting sick but it doesn't have to be such a big deal.
Then Tai was sitting on Tom's lap playing around and suddenly threw up. I have no idea if he accidentally gagged himself when he was screwing around, or whether there's stomach virus going on. Either way, not fun.
Tai seems to be feeling fine, after the one incident. He's outside playing with Tom right now. He might be a little quieter than usual, but not much.
I, on the other hand, am feeling sick again, and shaky with anxiety. It's frustrating because I'm pretty sure I feel sick because I'm freaked out not because I'm still sick. And I shouldn't be freaking out, because if Tai does have stomach virus, it started with me so I'm not going to get it again. I'd like to be chill about the whole situation but I'm not.
I'm trying to remember to breathe, and to tell myself that even if Tai and Tom get sick, it's a time-limited thing. Neither of them will be sick forever. And if it doesn't happen today, it will happen in the future, that's just the way of being human. I'm just not doing a great job of calming myself down and I'm wishing I could run away.
At least I didn't freak out in front of Tai, so I didn't make him upset about throwing up. I just wish there was a pill I could take to get rid of the anxiety and live life like most people. Sure, no one likes getting sick but it doesn't have to be such a big deal.
