Sleep, oh how I miss you
Dec. 10th, 2009 10:06 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
aubreymI am exhausted. Don't worry - I'll quit writing that soon. I'm just wishing that Tai would, one night on his own - magically, sleep through the night. Either in our bed or his, I have no preference. Just no 1, 3, and 5am wake up calls for boobie. No nightmares and following desires to play robots (I'm not sure he was awake when he suggested the robot thing). Just sleep.
I fantasize about sleep the way most guys fantasize about sex. I dream about solitude and a king size bed with soft, clean sheets, piled with pillows and blankets with a night stand big enough for a glass of water, a pile of books and a notebook. No need for an alarm clock in my fantasy. I could sprawl out - arms and legs like a starfish. I would open the window at the head of the bed and let the cool air rush in. If I get chilly, I can just curl up in the blankets. I could get lost in novels and when I start feeling sleepy I could just lay the book down and sink into the mattress.
Of course, I'd settle. A full size bed. A cot. A chaise lounge. A couch. A tiny night stand. A single book. One blanket and pillow. Wrinkly, scratchy sheets. But please, just some quiet and a luxurious 8 hours of solid sleep. I haven't had that in more than two years. I miss it.
(But not enough, apparently, to consistently try sleep training.)
I fantasize about sleep the way most guys fantasize about sex. I dream about solitude and a king size bed with soft, clean sheets, piled with pillows and blankets with a night stand big enough for a glass of water, a pile of books and a notebook. No need for an alarm clock in my fantasy. I could sprawl out - arms and legs like a starfish. I would open the window at the head of the bed and let the cool air rush in. If I get chilly, I can just curl up in the blankets. I could get lost in novels and when I start feeling sleepy I could just lay the book down and sink into the mattress.
Of course, I'd settle. A full size bed. A cot. A chaise lounge. A couch. A tiny night stand. A single book. One blanket and pillow. Wrinkly, scratchy sheets. But please, just some quiet and a luxurious 8 hours of solid sleep. I haven't had that in more than two years. I miss it.
(But not enough, apparently, to consistently try sleep training.)
